Monthly Archives: June 2016



“You used to be much more…Muchier.”

 You’ve lost your Muchness.”

The Mad Hatter to Alice

Alice in Wonderland

A few years ago, the movie Alice in Wonderland came out. I was really looking forward to that movie. When I was a little girl, I was fascinated by the story of a little girl who fell through a rabbit hole and encountered an entirely new world.  Maybe back in the day I had the beginnings of being adventurous but the responsibilities that I encountered on the road to adulthood put a stop to the thoughts of such silly shenanigans.

Recently, I saw this quote about “Muchness” from the movie.  The Mad Hatter is speaking to Alice and he says, “You used to be much more…muchier.  You’ve lost your muchness.”  And you know, quite honestly, I think I have, too!

Have you seen this movie?  Alice spends her time fighting off who people say she is.  They all know her from her previous adventures in Wonderland, of which she has no recollection at all. They speak to her of the memories of her adventures, of their experiences with her and of who she is. Alice adamantly replies, “I am Alice, but not that Alice.” Her adventures, and the future, are all written down on the scroll of Wonderland and still, since she has no recollection, she does not realize that she has forgotten who she is.

How much so with us?

For me, I have not walked in my muchness in one particular area of my life.  I used to be much more muchier in this one situation than I am now.  I realize this.  So do others, but I can’t seem to get back to that place of confident, bold, muchness.  Try as I might, momentary victories in this place do not seem to last.  The pressure mounts, and it is simply easier to forgo the adventure of rising up and simply get through the day.  “I am Delana, but not that Delana.”

I’m confessing that I intend to see this one area of my life line up with all of the other areas!  So, here’s to regaining my muchness!

Grace…A New Definition!


pizap grace

Grace…God’s grace…His unconditional love is poured out on us all the time, but why is it so hard for me to receive it?  I am so hard on myself! I don’t need to list out those self-condemning thoughts, because you probably have them too, so we don’t need to discuss the thoughts that can so quickly cause any of us to end up paralyzed in a deep, dark hole.

1 John 3:1, “See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are!”  However, due to life’s circumstances this can be difficult to grasp.  Sure, we all know this Scripture in theory, but how does it play out in our every day, everyday lives?

I find myself going back to 1 John 3 and 4.  In my Bible, I have an arrow going across the page from 1 John 3:19/20 over to 1 John 4:16.  For me, these verses will ever be connected together!  And, yes, of course, I write in my Bible.

1 John 3: 19/20 — “This is how we know that we belong to the truth and how we set our hearts at rest in His presence: If our hearts condemn us, we know that God is greater than our hearts, and He knows everything.”

Insert arrow.

1 John 4:16 — And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them.”

Please join me in reading them consecutively.

This is how we know that we belong to the truth

and how we set our hearts at rest in His presence: 

If our hearts condemn us,

we know that God is greater than our hearts,

and He knows everything...

And so we know

and rely

on the love God has for us

God is love.

Whoever lives in love lives in God,

and God in them.” 

He knows everything! He knows the intent of our hearts!!! He knows we didn’t want to do whatever we did, or fall into the paralyzing dark hole that so easily traps us by life’s hurts and our thoughts. He knows that the intent of our heart is to love Him with everything we are.  He knows everything!  Therefore, we can KNOW and RELY on the LOVE that He has for us!  No matter what!

This is not about us “Doing” the right thing.  We can’t maintain that.  However, we can live out of our intimate relationship with Him and live a life of grace.  We will make mistakes. We will have victories. One doesn’t override the other!

The other day, as I was praying and trying to grasp the concept of GRACE, I asked the Lord.  “Okay, so what IS grace from YOUR perspective?  I hear people say it is God’s Richest at Christ’s Expense.  Lord, that has never set well in my spirit.  It makes me sad, actually.  Can You tell me what Grace is?”

Then I waited.

Here’s what I sensed in my spirit. These words were far outside my realm of brilliance, so they had to be an answer from the Lord.

“My Darling One, this is GRACE.  God’s Ridiculous Acceptance Covers Everything.”

I’m sure the sound that was heard in the heavens was the sound of my brain blowing up!  What?  THAT’S GRACE?

“Yes, Delana.  THAT is MY Grace poured out into you, in your every day, everyday life.”

You mean I don’t have to be perfect? I don’t have to beat myself up for my failures? I don’t have to strive for Your acceptance?  I can simply receive Your ridiculous acceptance and let that cover everything?


Friend, as you read this, I pray that you will be able to let God’s Ridiculous Acceptance Cover Everything for your life, too!

A Summer Read — Walking Butterfly…the Book!


susie book

Happy Blogiversary!  It’s been four years since I started journaling my metamorphosis. Due to the hurts of life, I had walled myself off in a cocoon of self-protection.  I can now, delightfully proclaim that I have shed those confining walls of self-protection and am learning to spread my wings and fly.  Sure, I still have incidences where, if I am not careful, I will end up caught in a butterfly net and captured, but I am learning to see those traps more quickly.

I’m going to use this post as a promotion for my friend Susie Klein. Susie – SURPRISE!  You didn’t know I was going to do this. Susie has written this powerful book called Walking Butterfly.  If you need a good summer read, this would be an excellent choice. Susie is a very good story-teller. I found myself pulled into the pages of her book and it was as if Susie was telling me about her life. I really didn’t want to finish the book because of that. These are ordinary experiences that Susie had with our extraordinary God, trying to sort out life, hurts, joys and things that make you want to go hide in a cave and never come out.  Ever.

First, I want to share a little bit about how Susie and I became friends.

We have AHHH-MAZING friends all over the planet.  If you are reading this, then chances are YOU are one of those people.  I’m pretty sure the only people who read these posts are people who love me.  Thank you!

Some our friends live in California.  They lived (and still do) in a realm of freedom that David and I had not known.  Anyway, some of you know them. Some of you ARE them!  It started with one friend, Byron and then, his power-house of a wife, Crystal.  They are the kind of people who love well.  Over the years, we would meet their friends. They are the kind of people who have really good friends.  If you are a friend of theirs, then you are a friend of ours, kind of thing.  That’s how our circle of friends extended out to California.

On one of our trips, I shared with Crystal that I wanted to meet Susie.  Susie and I had become friends on social media and that turned out to be a good match.  We are so very similar in how we process life, friends and the Kingdom of God.  I really, really wanted to meet her in person.  She was, well, rather legendary to me.  Susie, you are probably reading this and thinking – “Me, legendary? Have you been drinking?”

It was a Sunday morning and Crystal found Susie and we went to chat.  Something unusual happened in that intentional meeting.  I caught a glimpse of Susie’s heart, the love of God that gently and powerfully resided in her spirit and of His love for her.  I am not all that emotional and I began to cry.  Susie said she doesn’t friend people she doesn’t know on social media but she felt a sort of kinship with me so she broke her rule.  Yay us, Susie!  A true friendship was birthed.

One time I went out to visit and Susie and I had an entire day together in Napa Valley. Her incredibly generous husband (hubs) had a gift card to a swanky restaurant and we dined like the royal gals we are!  We had this day together to share, listen, cry, laugh and make memories together.

ANYWAY —- Walking Butterfly would be an excellent summer read.  Many of the experiences Susie shared, I understand. I have also known incredible amounts of healing, but this book took the isolation-sting out of many of those wounds. Wounds are universal.  And, the point of the book is that the vast love of God can, and does, flow into those wounds and makes us whole.  It is Susie’s story.  It is my story. I bet it is your story, too.

You can get this on Amazon.  Click here for more info. book

And…thank YOU AHH-MAZING friend for reading and for being in my life!