I have had some interesting experiences lately. These experiences have not been very pleasant. However, they have been beneficial to show me areas of my heart that need to change.
Without over-sharing, let’s just say that when something rubs up against me that causes me to have my feathers ruffled, I have not handled that well. Even in my venting, or obvious frustration I’m still pretty nice and most of this ruffling goes on in waves and waves on the inside of me. We all know that waves pounding the land, in places it was not supposed to be, can be very destructive.
Was I “justified” in being ruffled over the things that happened? Perhaps. But I have no control over those situations or people. What I do have is the power of choice over my response. It seems so unfair to choose Love over anger. But Love is the right choice. Dang it!
Then, I think – they were harsh. Or they demanding. Or they were ….well, you get the idea. What is the right choice? Choose Love? Really? Aw, come on! Can’t I get angry? Can’t I be justified in this?
What I am really angry about is that I was not _______. I can fill in the blank with all sorts of words. But in those moments, I am making it all about me.
In those moments when frustration and anger begin to consume me and turn into waves of destruction in my soul, I can at the very least, choose Love for myself! In choosing Love for myself I am not letting those waves of bitterness pound my soul and erode my peace! Then, eventually, something else begins to happen. Grace begins to be my response instead of frustration! Wow – how DID that happen?!?
Love is a powerful force!
If I cannot bring myself to Love someone else, in those moments of frustration, I can choose Love for myself and let Love heal me. More Love = less internal stress! I can’t fix anyone else but I can respond better.